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Post by Esme Cullen on Jan 15, 2009 23:41:20 GMT
Esme walked around the house. It was too quiet for her. No teenagers running around, no one was here at all. What was she to do with her time? The house was already impecably clean. It tended to be that way when no one was there to destroy it. It hadn't taken long to tidy up after everyone left for the morning.
She had already ran to the store. Keeping up appearances required grocery runs, but Bella did stay over sometimes and the girl needed to eat. If Esme didn't know better, she would think that Bella hardly ate at all. But she did know better.
Finally realizing that there was nothing to do, Esme sat down on the couch and turned the TV on. A nice cooking show was on so she watched hoping to learn a new recipe. Maybe Bella would like something new and exotic. It would definitely be an experience.
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Post by Rosalie Hale on Jan 16, 2009 20:51:49 GMT
   ''When the thorn bush turns white that's when I'll come home'' ''And I don't know where I'll go'' ''And I don't know what I'll see'' ____________________________________
Rosalie snickered to herself as she heard her mom for all intents and purpose's pacing around the house below her. It wasn't fair,, Rose hadn't seen Emmett all day it sucked.
And well she missed him,, just being apart from him for seconds minutes... any small amount of time and she missed Em. It was like a whole had been ripped out of her and left there,, to rot away nothing more than to just rot and die.
It mentally hurt her to be away from her beloved but she had to carry on she couldn't just stop! every time someone was away from her,, but it didn’t mean that she couldn’t try.
She sighed,, before pushing herself up off the white leather sofa that was placed in the center of the bedroom. Before she quickly stood up and moved towards the full length of the mirror.
She smoothed her golden hair out,, so it all lay perfectly flat to just above her wiaste,, she smiled how perfect she looked,, even she couldn’t deny that she was basically perfect,, she tugged her white blouse down so it covered everything. As she straightened her necklace,, that featured the Cullen crest on it.
She smiled,, flashing her white teeth,, before she flitted forward.
As she raced down the stairs within seconds that she left her room,, she was in the living room of the mansion like house. "Hello Esme..." she smiled,, before glancing up at the screen of the flat screen TV.
For Bella obviously,, why'd she get all the special treatment,, with Esme learning how too cook other meals for the human. "Why'd you bother with her so much?" Rose asked,, the tone of disgust imminent in her voice. She didn't like the human that much,, not 'cause of any other reason that Bella had everything that Rosalie wanted.
And Bella was so willing to give it all up to become a monster. She hated that,, why'd anyone want to give up a human happy life to become a monster.
Rosalie let herself fall in the sofa next to Esme,, before she turned to look at her adoptive mother.
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Post by Esme Cullen on Jan 16, 2009 21:08:03 GMT
Esme looked up at Rosalie's entrance. "Oh, I thought that I was alone." She told her with a soft smile. But Rosalie's next statement made her frown a little. Rosalie was always the one that didn't like bella. She was envious no doubt. "I am just being nice. And it would do you some good to be nice too. Edward loves her. Alice has already said that she will become part of this family. I already see her as one of the family." She sighed and smiled again. "She will be your sister and it would mean a lot to me if you could be a little nice."
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Post by Rosalie Hale on Jan 16, 2009 21:43:24 GMT
''When the thorn bush turns white that's when I'll come home'' ''And I don't know where I'll go'' ''And I don't know what I'll see'' ____________________________________
"Nope, I’ve been hiding out upstairs for a while, I’m just wondering 'bout Emmett, were he's gotten himself to this time" she smiled, she hadn’t really been hiding out but she’s been really quite she wasn’t surprised that Esme hadn’t heard her move or anything.
Just the thought of Emmett brought a smile to Rosalie's lips. Her bear like husband was perfect, he was her life and she was his life. She hated being separated from him like this all the time, but he needed to hunt so he had to go she just wished she had taken the opportunity to go with her.
It totally sucked, but at least she had the rest of her family to rely on to be able to talk to her, when Emmett wasn’t there. And when she said family she meant actual vampires, not human people like Isabella Swan. Of whom could never be real family to Rosalie. At least not until she was a vampire, but she doubted Edward would ever let that happen.
"Well Edward can crush on who ever he wants, i don't care... but i don't want Bella in the family. EVER!" she said before letting out an over exaggerated breath.
As she turned towards the TV, not paying attention to what was actually blaring from the speakers, not that the TV was loud or anything she could just hear it all really easily and it sounded loud to her. She hated cooking programmes anyway, so she wasn’t going to try and listen to it. So what good would it do her to change now, change and try and do something for Bella? It wouldn’t as far as she could see.
"Well you see her as family, i see her as a human... prey" she stated, as she put as much exaggeration on the last word. Prey. That was what Bella should have been to the family.
Not a bloody family member.
When Bella became a vampire, she would maybe decide to accept her into the family but other than that nothing, Rosalie wasn't even going to try unless she had too.
"When she is one of us... i'll accept her, she can be my best friend for all i care... just not at the moment" she smiled at her mom.
She didn't care, if Bella went through the three days of shear hell. With fire racing through her veins, then Rosalie would accept Bella into the family as a real family member not just a stupid human that didn’t know what she was giving up or an anything as that was all Bella was, a stupid human that didn’t realize what she was giving up.
But other than that she would never let Bella be part of her family, no, never!.
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Post by Esme Cullen on Jan 16, 2009 21:52:10 GMT
Esme frowned slightly and turned the television off. Rosalie had her own individual opinions but calling Bella prey was a little harsh. "Rose, honey, I know you don't like her, but for me will you at least be nice to her when she is around you. At the very least don't say things that might upset her. Do it at least for Jasper. He has to feel those emotions and it bothers him."
Esme was always talking to Jasper about his power. It was hard on him sometimes and he had viewed it as a burden. He was always having to influence Bella's moods when she was over here and it tired him out a lot. "Your brother doesn't like having to influence her moods when she is here. And before you say that he doesn't need to, he thinks he does. IHe does it to benefit you and everyone else in the house."
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Post by Rosalie Hale on Jan 16, 2009 22:15:47 GMT
''When the thorn bush turns white that's when I'll come home'' ''And I don't know where I'll go'' ''And I don't know what I'll see'' ____________________________________
The TV flashed off, as she watched the lights die slowly finally. She turned back to Esme before speaking again. She knew that her mom would obviously want her to be friends with Bella.
Rose just didn't feel that she could be part of Bella's family ever. Even if everyone else wanted to be in part of Bella's family, Rose just didn't feel like she could be. It was just to hard for her to be able to watch Bella throw everything away. Especially like she didn't even need it. It was so annoying Bella had everything, though she didn't seem to see it.
She didn't get that she was throwing everything away, she had the ability to have children and she didn't even need that or want that any more. What Rose would have gave to be able to reproduce.
"I'm not trying for anyone, apart from me. Or Em, you know i can't just do that, everything that i had stolen from me so i could become this!" she as she pointed at herself.
[/b]"I'm not just prepared to let her throw everything away for nothing"[/b] she stated. "Bella can feel what ever Jasper wants her too, i don't care any more" she said. As she let her voice fade away near the end. She couldn't just watch her sister through everything away. "Jasper could always get a bloody grip of himself" she snarled. She didn't mean that about her brother, though she didn't want to let Esme think she was just going to give in. which she wasn't of course. "Esme... you don't know what i had to give up to become this, and i know i'd have died if i didn't become a monster, but still Bella should know everything! everything Edward hasn’t told her" she stated in a very mater of factually voice. Bella needed someone to fight her corner. And Rosalie was doing this herself. She had to do that, Bella shouldn't have had to give up everything to become a monster. [/blockquote][/size] |
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Post by Esme Cullen on Jan 16, 2009 22:25:45 GMT
Esme let out a sigh as Rosalie began to rant. SHe had always been a mediator and she didn't mind it either. Being able to know what everyone thought and felt was a blessing to her. She was a good listener and had often gave the best advice she could.
"Rose, if you think that she should know, then tell her. I know that Edward hasn't said everything to her because he is set on her not becoming one of us. But she wants it. So have a civilized conversation with her about everything she is giving up. Maybe she won't want it anymore." Esme knew that Bella would still want ti, but she wanted to comfort Rosalie. She was more sensitive than she let on and it was only something a mother could see.
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Post by Rosalie Hale on Jan 18, 2009 0:38:49 GMT
''When the thorn bush turns white that's when I'll come home'' ''And I don't know where I'll go'' ''And I don't know what I'll see'' ____________________________________
Rosalie scowled at her mother for all intents and purpose's, as Esme sighed, as if she really didn't want to be hearing what Rose had to say at all. If she didn't want to listen she didn't have too,, it didn't bother Rose in the slightest. Well it would actully, she'd just get even more angry if Esme walked off, she couldn't stand being ignored.
She always wanted everyone to know her point of view on most things, though most of the family didn't want to listen to her. Though she'd sorted most of the issues with all the rest of the family out now, she still wasn't going to let Bella ruin her life to become a monster.
A victim to there own thirst. As that was all Rosalie was, she was ruled allot of the time by her own thirst the need to hunt and kill something, to drink blood. It was a harsh thing to have to go through but she did every day. And she hated it.
"Bella is blind to the outcome of becoming a vampire... she doesn’t care, she only wants to be with Edward and for her that means she has to be a vampire." she said.
Rosalie wouldn't have picked this if she had had another option, she'd have rather had Carlisle leave her there. Leave her on the cold road, let her bleed to death. It would have been much easier for her.
"I can't have that conversation with Bella, me and Edward have issues enough at the moment, we can barley talk to each other now, do you really think telling Bella... my storey and the outcome of being vampire will help any?" she asked Esme.
Though all kindness had drained from her face, all she really wanted and needed was to be told what to do. She hated fighting against all the family all the time.
Her and Edward used to have such a strong bond it was nearly unbreakable, but then there was Bella and everything was broken. It all fell apart. The whole family, everything it just wasn't fair.
She couldn't tell Bella about her life 'cause it wasn't fair to make her listen to that, all the evilness, everything. Rosalie knew that she wouldn't have wanted to hear any of that from herself again.
Though the memories were so clear still, she didn't want to let them fade at all, she had to think about them every day and it tore her apart in doing so. But she couldn't let the thoughts die away from her.
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Post by Esme Cullen on Jan 18, 2009 0:48:05 GMT
Esme smiled and reached out and touched Rosalie's arm. She tried so hard. Rosalie was one of those people that stuck with their opinoins no matter what. "I think that telling her may help. If it doesn't make her change her mind, at least Bella will know what she is giving up." Esme could only try to get through to her. Really, she just wanted Rosalie to be happy.
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Post by Rosalie Hale on Jan 18, 2009 1:00:20 GMT
''When the thorn bush turns white that's when I'll come home'' ''And I don't know where I'll go'' ''And I don't know what I'll see'' ____________________________________
Rosalie, well her stubborn-ness got in the way allot of the time, as it was doing here again. She didn't see that talking to her so called sister would help.
Bella was selfish, she was willing to hurt her family like that all for a guy, it was unreasonable it wasn't normal. Rosalie just didn't understand her the way she did the rest of the family.
Not that Bella was family, she never would be if Rosalie would help it. She didn't what Bella involved in the family at all, and then there was Seattle to think about.
Everything that was going on there, the Volturi were soon to come checking up on the family, seeing if they kept there promise about turning Bella.
Which they hadn't, and that was going to no doubt land them all in the shit, as well Bella should have been bitten by now if anything was going to change, but Edward wouldn't and Bella shouldn't be. She shouldn't even be near the family.
Rose stared at Esme, as she touched her arm, her warm smooth skin touching near the joint of her own arm. "Esme, please... do you really think it will change her mind... think about it please, if Carlisle was to turn up here tonight human, you would do what ever it took to become like him... you wouldn't listen to any one would you?" she paused before continuing with her theory.
"You would do what ever you had too to be turned back into a human so you could be with Carlisle, so why should it be any different with Bella, she'd do anything to become a monster so she could be with Edward for life" she stated as if that was final.
"Wouldn't you talk to her for me?" it would be much easier of Esme talked to Bella about it all for her.
Then Edward wouldn't get mad, he would never get cross at Esme. It was impossibility for him, Esme the closet thing he had to mother and he wasn't going to give that up for anything.
It would have been better if any of the family talked to Bella instead of Rosalie having to do it.
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Post by Esme Cullen on Jan 18, 2009 18:49:06 GMT
"True I would do anything it took to be with Carlisle, no matter the cost. If you love someone you don't care whether they are vampire or not. Carlisle could have been a Werewolf and I would have still loved him, smell or no smell." Esme told Rosalie with a soft smile. She knew the girl had so many worries.
"What Edward and Bella have is special. Think back to when you first met Emmett. You were going to do anything for him just because of love. You carried him all those miles just so Carlisle could save him for you. You hate being a vampire yet you put him through the transformation so that he could experience it with you." Esme knew Rosalie wouldn't like what she was saying, but it needed to be known.
"If you want me to talk to her, then I will. But I really do think you should do it. It would give her a chance to get to know you better and to understand your demeanor."
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Post by Rosalie Hale on Jan 19, 2009 17:53:01 GMT
''When the thorn bush turns white that's when I'll come home'' ''And I don't know where I'll go'' ''And I don't know what I'll see'' ____________________________________
Exactly, so there was really no point at all in Rosalie trying to talk to Bella about what she was doing if she let herself be bitten, and turned into a monster. Rosalie totally understood though, she would have done anything to stay with Emmett, she couldn't blame Bella for wanting to spend forever with the one she loved.
Rosalie was fair when it came down to it she always had been, though she just had different approach to things –like arguments and airing her opinions- as allot of the other family did. She just bit the bullet so to speak, said what she felt. Were as the other's would dodge the subject but get to the point in other ways.
She didn't care, pretty much everyone had accepted Rose for being a goby. Never shutting up when she felt strongly about something. It was just her though so she couldn't complain too much.
It was true what Esme was saying, Rose didn't want to it too be as much as she didn't want it to be, Esme was talking sense. "But maybe Emmett didn't want to become a vampire... maybe... maybe what i had done to him was the complete opposite of what he wanted, maybe he'd have rather i left him to die" she paused. Before forcing herself to breath again.
Not that she wanted to. Maybe she done the complete wrong thing by bringing Emmett into this life, maybe she shouldn't have done. Though she wasn't going to let herself regret any decision she made. Not now anyway. Emmett was with her and always would be. It was that simple.
"So Esme, all that is way too true for my likening... but Bella won't listen... why should she. No one should have to listen to me... hell i wouldn't even want to listen to me on this subject. She wants to become a monster... she can have it, but just don't expect me to do anything different" she stated.
A quiet hiss sounded out through her teeth, she wished she hadn't done that but still she had.
Rosalie hated having to talk to Bella at all, not just because she couldn't stand the human. But also the smell, it was so enticing it was unreasonable. You should have been locked up for smelling so nice.
"No. Esme. Your right. I should try and talk to her about it" Rosalie finally decided she would try and talk to the soon to become family member she couldn't avoid it for forever.
As much as she wished she could. She knew deep down all it was going to take on her part was some guts and determination.
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Post by Esme Cullen on Jan 20, 2009 6:00:49 GMT
Esme listened to Rosalie talking. She had her doubts sometimes but Esme had always listened to everything she had ever had to say. "Have you ever asked Emmett if he had ever wanted it? Maybe if you ask him he would tell you that he did want it." Emmett had taken it all in stride. He had a lot of fun in their lifestyle. It was hard to believe that he would not want it.
"I know you will do the right thing. And Bella, being the girl she is, will listen to you. It is a good way for the two of you to get closer, and maybe she will understand you better." Esme said with a soft smile. SHe had always loved to help her children. She was one of the few people that would listen to everything Rosalie had to say.
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Post by Rosalie Hale on Jan 21, 2009 16:24:20 GMT
''When the thorn bush turns white that's when I'll come home'' ''And I don't know where I'll go'' ''And I don't know what I'll see'' ____________________________________
Truthfully Rosalie didn't want to talk to Emmett about that, she wasn’t comfortable talking about being a vampire with any one to be honest. She had managed to come to terms with what she was.
Only just though, she hadn't really managed to accept all the other things like not being able to have children, she'd been so close to having that... having her own children and then it was all taken from her so quickly.
Just 'cause of her stupid ignorant husband had been drunk and hadn't wanted anything but to be able to show of to his friends about how amazing he was, how strong he was, how much better than Rose he was.
Well he'd done it, Rose had nearly died. Carlisle had saved her, now she was this. And Royce King was long since dead, so really she had nothing to be pissed of at though she always found something.
"Me and Emmett, well we don't really discuss that sort of thing... I’m not really comfortable talking about it with any one really. No one asked and well its something everyone already knows... you know what i mean Esme?" she asked as a small frown came across her face. Her eyebrows pulled together, creating a small crease in-between them.
Easy for Esme to say, the right thing? well the right thing to Rose could and probably was a complete wrong thing to most other people. Like she'd love it to be able to shun Bella from the whole family, though she wouldn't it would cause to much stress between Edward and her. So technically she hadn't done the right thing then...
"Maybe she will listen... i suppose" as Rosalie eventually caved in. She couldn't keep deny what she knew was right. She couldn't just keep telling herself that Esme was wrong and she was right when she new she wasn't.
She sighed, before letting herself relax, leaning back into the couch she sat on. She didn't want to argue about Bella with Esme. Esme had always been there for Rosalie and she was just being really ignorant to her.
"So... Esme... has Alice mentioned shopping yet?" Rose snickered. She was actually looking forward to going shopping with her sister and Esme. They hadn't done that in a long time.
She just hoped Alice didn't see the need to invite Bella along, though Bella would most likely try to keep away from shopping as she classed that as a subtitle form of torture. So Bella would most likely try and to keep away.
Leaving Alice disappointed but Rosalie would be very happy about it. She didn't want to be dragging a human around the shops all day. Not fun in her opinion.
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Post by Esme Cullen on Jan 21, 2009 18:53:55 GMT
Hearing Rosalie talk about Emmett only showed how much they were in love. No matter the emotion being displayed, the love they shared showed through. It was the same with all of her children. She was glad that they had all found love because watching Edward go for so long without it had been hard. "I do know."
As Rosalie started to hit realization, Esme's heart broke. The girl was strong-willed and hated to be wrong. So naturally it would not be a happy feeling when she would realize that she was wrong. And Esme was someone who wanted everyone to be happy.
"She did want to go this weekend. I happened to mention my dwindling wardrobe from garments being ruined, and Alice, being the fashion pixie, demanded a trip. Would you go with us?" Esme asked Rosalie sweetly. She loved shopping with her daughters. It was always a fun affair.
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